Alpha Beta See ALL!

My alphabetical is prophetical inter galactic stellar KID// I'm yelling it!!!! Ole Yeller DEAD! Cuz I'm a new fudging POP like Cosby without curse words/ I verse herds round em up and ride cattle like scared sheep when this Father speaks! They come running but I walk a way that moves faster than slow motion moving backwards in the crowd so optical illusions confuse my MOVEMENT! But my MOVEMENT STRONG! So people back me but never ask ME to follow! Because I'm a graphic being with (w)inners REAL HOLLOW! My dark heart lit with black lighting that reveals neon lights so my real friends all Wrekonize! MY TRUE COLORS!  Shaded skins all dark but WE highlighted! So HIGH LIFE IT but drink craft beer not made by corporations! Because we support each other before profit driven labels so we always INDEPENDENT! Imaginations building community of common unity! That WE FEEL a future beyond concepts of just YOU AND ME... it's US and no one gets thrown under the bus because we all on the SAME One! Driven by purpose beyond questioning if WE are worth IT ... so SUCK IT! Just to please programed ears with limits of words I'm HERE Now... like Jesus Christ did he just say that? I'm way back before religious sects sucked life out of individuality and we named more intelligent communities CULTS! I'll speak truth til I'm hoarse so go ahead and call me a colt... told you... WE INDIE! Windy like the City we gone til tomorrow on the edge of a NEW WORLD but with DIVINE ORDER no longer orderly ... serve and protect? Our protection IS OUR SERVICE! Guns down because WE ONE NOW without bickering rejection! Sickening infection more concerned with Actions than human BEINGS! I'll fucking die on the front lines and I just slipped up excited ... sorry-n-shit I'm just so passionate I can't even control myself even if I do my BEST to deny it! Alpha Beta Seeing ALL so go ahead ... TRY IT!

THESE KIDS

these children fucking saved me because I couldn't surface from under my purpose I was left drowning! So they drove my ass crazy til I was tired of frowning! Made a MESS of my Life/Like shit all OVER the floor! Saying, "but We really really like it! Give us more! Give us More! We want More!" Til my mind said "Fuck this!" And walked Out the door... There's no going back/point of no return gonna leave it all behind me/new life breathed into me/CPR/Children Pretended it Real/We be far/ til they come near us and alter Reality/brand New energy emerging neutrality/  

BOYS TO MEN

Special Wisdom of the Day for MEN:

"Boys" can only think so shallow to harass a women sexually. They only touch the mere surface of the woman, too concerned with the physical and like a child attached to their mother, cling to her with needy tendencies. They are stuck so far inside their male ego they have not only very little clue of what a woman truly wants, but what is really important to them for happiness. A boy cares not to evaluate himself, nor cares to understand if he wishes to enjoy the beauty of the lake he must learn to swim regardless if he wants to get wet or not.

A Man understands touching a woman's soul is of far greater importance than touching her physically. Far more important than showering her with gifts. And knows that every woman is the same in kind, but different in degree. Each a flower in different stages of blossom. That individualized care is needed to reach each one according to where she is at during the moment in life. That many times, like everyone, what she thinks she wants is not really WHAT she wants. And knows that he can only unveil it through love and never with positive male aggression and criticism. And the prerequisite for knowing all of this, and building this wisdom, is that he must be a MAN, for a boy is incapable of securing this wisdom. He must be secure and confident standing alone before he can secure the true love and affection of another that goes beyond the "animalistic ideal" many have of love. Understand this and you can master charisma.

-Gallagher

SEX

You know I have always wanted to share cuddling, and snuggling and other things with you. Holding hands in public. A soft kiss.  Like the softer side of Love making. Tantra that I inherently know as nearly everything I know inherently. I master anything I desire by simply imagining it. Be it cooking, writing, physical fitness, any arts, any thing if I REALLY want to feel it. And so it has long been LOVE in the physical I have longed for all my life. And so I have been here on this planet for some time analyzing all it's working behind it's seens... And I have seen it all. Don't get me wrong I do not see ANY reason not to enjoy it ALL, the exciting and daring things too. Yet for whatever reason I have agreed to not undress you. I suppose that is what a man does on this planet. He let's the female undress her self, or at the very most he does it at her abode. So it is while your outside says you'd like to stay where you are and for me to leave you alone... Well. Since when do I pay ANY attention to what's going on outside!!!? Certainly if going by outside alone on so many accounts we would have gone NO WHERE. As you have not seen the beauty out that I have seen.

I feel the calling inside. I used to assume by minds design, that your inability to cuddle and spoon and do all the wonderful things that a man and woman would greatly benefit from TOGETHER was because of your weight and insecurity about that. But no indeed that was not it all, was it? Not "really", that was merely a "side effect." And while I have always been aware of the reasons you gave your self, I never really wanted to over step my boundaries and draw it out of you. Well now these boundaries are being dissolved and I no longer need play by these boundaries... with you nor ANY one any longer! And I thank GOD for that!  For so long it made not a sense to me how I could feel something so sensual from you and get it in very Earthly ways from time to time... Yet you were also the most defense and prudish person sexually! Even on non intercourse levels!  I cannot fathom your own design because if I could it would not be fun. All I can give you is that I feel enough and "know" enough to share with you this...

Sex is not really what you have "learned" it is. Like much of this world. The woman has been told she is to uphold the system and protect it. And she does so with her life. Yet this system, which I am sure you are more or less aware, is crumbling. From the schools, to the monetary system, to the living systems, and yes even the sexual/partnership systems. All the books that are so well known now will be useless tomorrow. Everything we thought, for the most part, has been a lie. Yes it's extent is FAR more out reaching  than your movies could EVER portray! It has been a great deal of my frustration with this planet. It's inability to see past the non-sense, literally VOID of SELF feeling, in it's so called teachings and systems.

Please, in all actuality we have no "system" in our expanded degree of consciousness. Anyway back to my purpose of this. Sharing with you that after very mildly being drawn against my Hearts desire to spend some time with other women of this planet...and playing out in a way my Heart told my mind to give it to you... You are not alone. Woman (in general sense) have no true understanding of making Love. While yes the man has little understanding of the "physical" working of exciting a woman, believe me or not, that matter little if you go where I'd like to go. They too (women in general) have been abused in one way or another. They to are simply drawn to the more "excited" state where it's got to be as these "pornos" have taught us. Doing what they THINK will please man and so man often does what he thinks he is supposed to do and often little pleasure is had from either participant! Let me tell you anyone in their right mind knows the positions in Kama Sutra were NOT done at the pace and expectation of Western porn! 

Our women here do not forget, rather just deny that it never happened. And let me be clear here as to my language because we so often get it confused here in it's meaning. Notice I did not write you "deny it happened"...  I mean deny it never happening. For what ever you THINK happened is what keeps you from finding yourself. As so many women hold onto and protect this system of the mind that controls THIS world ... Yet all must feel it is to no longer have this "unnatural" control. So in controlling the mind many women, by design they are the "biggest" controllers so to speak, cannot let go of a thought of abuse. For to truly let go of that abuse and realize the person you TRULY are did NOT receive that abuse. It exists ONLY in the Mind of your Self that YOU control. You invisible hands literally molding and cupping things of past! Listening not only to YOUR thoughts but thoughts of Loved ones who see no clearer than you giving AD-VICE... More vice grips upon your conscious state. It keeps them from freeing who they are. It keeps us from expressing who we are and being able to ACCEPT the Whole love we are. You ARE Free then to experience and accept such a broader range of Love a being such as myself could give. It is, by far and large the WHY so many men on this planet seek MANY women! Because women of this space in time only accept a little of this or that. It does OFTEN take a good deal of women to be able to express all we wish we could express to ONE women! It is in fact why the "dumb blondes" often enjoy much attention. Because what they lack in the intellect of "trained" intelligence, they "more than make up for" in playfulness, acceptance, tenderness, and un series, or non seriousness of predetermined events.
See a being like me does not have to have 50 relations to know these things. Surely you are my reflection and must know these things as well. And so it baffles me into a sense...

My feeling is that you have been steady in not giving up an idea that bonds you so it would keep me bonded within as well. Because I have most certainly been accepting in the fact that I am supposed to wait on you before I can open up everything I am and enjoy this world! My greatest and perhaps, ONLY,motivation to treat this place loving and not turn it into the complete "chaos" it needs. Which more than likely the strong presence I am in this world with nothing be able to stop what I was sent here to do... I probably would have gotten myself killed if I had "awoken" more fully BEfore NOW! So THANK YOU. As our world here "operates" in such a strange manner! Yet today I have no thoughts of not speaking in whatever way I feel when needed. The World is ripened for a change, and so I am ripened for it as well. I will play this game that bores me, these sleeping states of no expressing who we REALLY are for a bit longer, but my patience has "run thin" ... Meaning running it's course for necessity. I write in this manner simply because my more poetic natural manner has been asked to rest for a moment. So I write more in the nature of this world for mental acceptance and observation. I write that it was YOU who made it clear to ME after you went out for your exploration that I must let go. With Heart felt speech to me about letting go of your abortion to be freed yourself ... So you could accept these three beautiful children unto you, for us. Perhaps you remember this, perhaps you don't. Yet I tell you NOW you shall let go of what you must to accept not me, but your TRUE self. As whatever come to me shall come to me. I have plenty of good coming my way as even the fate that may shock others will be heaven to me in the end. But that is far off so in the mean time I would like to be rewarded with a wife I have been chasing for more than a decade! I am running out of breathe for Christ's sake! Truly I speak what you perceive of me that scares you, is not ME nor any man that scares you. For what scares you of me I am aware, and it shall not nor can it ever go anywhere than IN MY HEART. And while I am more aware of "how to use it" than ever before, far most than most men... It is still that which is damned in your Heart that has always brought this "issue" about within you whether with me or other men... And well women, good luck!!! Keep em!

If not ever meant to speak these words in face to face flesh, I can always speak it here in the truer silent language of Love where all perceived pressure is gone.  For the "face to face" to work here... two must accept and express the same degree to receive the same degree. It is why my writing varies from my speech... To large degree this world has not been accepting of what I have to say. Even in past my writing would have gotten me killed! Yet today is my time and it grows and expands out, as it does for every One to BE their purpose without fear, judgment, or damnation from those that MATTER ... 
I will slowly do, until this world tells me otherwise to do slow more or speed up, speak out what for so long I have held IN. It's going to seem fast for many but be slow for me. For I worked their busy world with my slow process, now they will play in my fast world with their busy process!

With my absolute Love and devotion as IN ALL WAYS...

Yours Truly, BrYan 

LIST IN (TWO) ALL OF US IN THE MOMENT!

IT'S NOT TAKING TIME BUT A MOMENT TO "LIST IN" ...NOT TEACHING... NOT PREACHING ... JUST BEING

We got lost in the WHO RAWS of genres til it was built in our genes ...until our Jeans got faded like the Dreams we couldn't see! 
So we spread the word/ and NOW it ‪#‎ADHERES 
often with AD SMEARS
Pap&Stick it to ‘em/ til THE{Y} REAL EYES... they were US! 
Stopped the QUEST-SHUNNING US... and just let US B......
C????

Then LISTEN and we make it POWDER relieving HEAD ACHES/
dust to man in the right HOUR/ that’s POWER FULL planted SOUL food!

Strip the Soul naked with no fear of what's underneath because I’ve been pissing in the wind moving my mouth for NOW reason!
That’s sound treason because words were pictured WRONGLY 
so I’m humbly HERE to correct the situation 
that words are meaning less when left alone outside of man’s mind alone! 
Diggity Dome covering up HOME GROWN... all fine and dandy when lying, long as we’re see through; 
and not solid states blocking the son from coming into the man! 
So Christ spoke it was the SON of MAN that needed to come forth and not simply a mankind… 
kind of getting a little Sun underneath his LANDMIND! 
Bout to blow up the SELF and IN FLICK damage to SOULS BEING! 
So we mistranslated and saw “Sin In Me” … IN STEAD(Y)… was misaligned SYN-ER-GY! 
Life is A Golden Globe without THE award show! 
So SHOW what’s been awarded in you!

Hallelujah is the hollow graphic body with the SOUL in Lew of You! 
Trying to match UP! Like Align the outer inner! 
Not ever needing to match up “other” people! 
Align OUR Self and every ONE else is felt as equal! 
We drop sequels for the ORIGINAL PEOPLE! 
Because who other made the Sequels? 
Then the SON’S of the previous People! 
Weren’t THEY the Origin of ALL? 
Daughters of the Mother who sheltered us under the steeple! 
Whether we called it Church or the WHOLLY get together! 
Praising each other united IN EVER…FOR the PEOPLE!
That’s a pretty GOOD showing of BEING equal. 
FOR, coming after EVER, and BE, before the FOR…
so NOW we have EVER BE FOR the PEOPLE. 
Does anything else even matter like words we chatter … 
merely THINKING they mean a thing! 
Will you repeat that to self a couple of "times"? 
HERE, I’ll give you a few moments in case you THINK you can mess up a moment! 
Living behind and forward is a guessing game. 
So we say we go back and forth over a thing… KNOW? YES I say may it BE so! 
Just BE Love in the moment and things can never go wrong even if people go back and forth on the totter! 
Because Is not the center always stable? 
Neutralized equal?

That’s GOD’S …. STABLE ABILITY mankind terms Stability. 

"Unconsciously" moving in and out of it so we termed it Subconscious and now consciously THINK we are SUB-PAR!
Beneath the GOD we are! 
Then try to “make-it-up” and say we are over compensating! Term it ego awakening! 
See OUR GOD appears too strongly for US at times NOW ahead of THINGS. 
Outside the MOMENT we're ALL IN! 
Big Headed dreams called impossible by those who think themselves SUBPAR… 
so a clear battle between two mind states make for I RATES! Yet remain neutral and the Heart beats a different tune of harmonic MUSE I C ALL… 
Musical in case we missed it. 
Music to MY EARS … what about yours? 
Can YOU... HERE.... ME? 
GET UP OUT YOUR SEATS WHERE YOU SIT IF YOU CAN!
I mean listen to your SELF and FEEL ME… that’s “REAL” AD-HERING … ATTENTION DEVOTED HERE IN… so yes our kids have ADD!
So self involving we stop them from adding to our evolving!

Subtracting from who WE are "altogether"! 
So can we do the best to ACCECPT who WE really are and just let our SON shine? 
IN(side) ALL WAYS kidding more than being so... SERIES US... like any series of events EVER made US!
Only LOVE does in complete acceptance because what is “more” WHOLLY than THAT?

GOD BLESS [ALL IN] LOVE AND ACCEPTANCE

BREAKING INTO THE WALLS

We are the fabric of Time...

Like Joel says it's time for a BREAK OUT!
Needing a break from all the HATE felt
In the Deepened Darkness of my Heart
With Knees KNELT!
Lord SAVE ME!
Yet drawn deeper in the Darkness til so much pain was given I wanted to take it out... Heartless
See the brain only minds the soul if visually sound
But only the Heart can HERE me
So the mind saw me coming and yelled "FEAR ME!"
Closed divisions of past intuitions searching for all the Loved ones it THINKS we are missing
See I was a child and drew on the walls; sounds I was HERE-IN...
But they said we don't draw here son!
So I stopped drawing nearer grounded sound acts!
And just colored the black and white inside the lines of pounded clowned facts!
Where working,never playing, makes for broken dulled jacks...
Again hammered home
So eventually I grew up old until considered a bit senior
And the sounds came so strong out of my darkness I couldn't resist some slips ups from down there...
They said I was old enough, so go ahead... frown air.
I mean paint faces because we all know life is a circus and we have mastered walking the trapeze in great altitudes...
Thin lined attitudes of what's accepted when things are hectic!
So don't you know I saw a new book being written with BLANK walls
Blank stairs to the faces!
So I began writing some of the sounds I have long herd like cattle mooooving in my heart ready to come out like ... HOLY COW!
And when I would go out-into the World I saw breaking down some would pull me aside and say ... I've been reading the writing on your wall and I can't understand it ... I don't know what it means... but I do enjoy it
So even though I never got many LIKES I was still inspired to write it!
Because I had felt so much hate in my Heart I couldn't bare it anymore without a thought of it stewing inside so the mind spoke Suicide...
Return to SENDER
But when I did; my Heart began to speak clearer and the more the sound waves broke the Earth's "Actors Fear!"
And I could now HERE the scribbles of tapped keys opening locked doors that nobody knew of!
My wall now a mess like a scientific equation and yet in the darkness of my Heart I found a black light that could read it ALL!
Yes there is no time like write now... read now... please thou?
Art before you of divine nature because that's how it's written!
I've seen the new light unlike the one's of past reflection dimly lit to find the way through the darkened Heart seen in mind
See, we're blind!
It was always about a SOUND wave on this traveling sound stage
Golden Age we've had to herd to be seen...
So we gather not to build up or break down the walls.
We are just now BREAKING INTO the walls of darkness to find new light the eyes have not adjusted... yes we are BUSTED!
So HERE my words and listen deep our break OUT is breaking IN...
We'll HERE the beginning when we THINK we see the END!

ALL LOVE AND BLESSINGS!

I AM OUT(of)LAW

http://phoenix-ivory-tower.wikispaces.com/Xander

I AM OUT(of)LAW

I break rules like regular regulations running on one leg broken
A cracked head smoking
So I've been called a hot head token
Totem pole dancing maniac
Drinking similac baby!
too many hormones in the mothers milk from being fed bullshit
So I dread full clips
Of policed firearms trying to apprehend me
Because not a law written can ever contain my actions
When my acts interrupt classes of masses in-between my temper
Tampered with the WHOLE system!
and 13 came up missing
Two days before my Birthday I Marched the 15th whole heartedly into the ocean
Where dolphins helped me sink coast guards and save the 7 seas!
I break rules with every exception at the knee
Cap me off and still can't darken my inner Heart darkened darker than
Pitch Black pitched to Albinos
I get drunker than drunk to free homeless winos from being wasted!
Free based it on my second line so you know I'm totally high
Higher than Charles Sheen drinking coke in my dream soaking up HERO-EEEEEEENNN!
I dont punctuate very often to piss off grammar nazis trying to put an end to me...
PERIOD
Dropped the I and just asked WHY?
So I spelled it out for them
BRYAN
Blondish hair and blue eyes but please don't hit Lear
Even though I am a Shakespearean King who can bend words greater than a double jointed poet doing mad lines with his pen out totally relaxed!
I can intertwine the entire grammatical system into the the Grammies!
Old soft toons playing in my head awarded me the youngest in my class to ever smash a fist full of squeezed sentences into peaces!
I mean no more judging our freedom with my fist in the air!
So you know by now I pack a powerful punch when I'm pissed off playing polices perched pretty pathetically above pathological logic purposely written!
I don't give a damn when I let loose lyrics I'm spitting on side walks next to blind cops
If they step in my saliva; they'll slip and fall in my bind love that's concrete!
So some think I travel mean streets but then we rarely know what I mean!
Broke so many hipsters with a stolen night stick
They can't find me in the day time... so can't measure me with your ruler!
So put away the protractors farming illegal seeds filled with chemicals
Cuz I'll burn the whole lot like a pyro while eating a vegan gyro... so hot, of immeasurable degrees!!!
Please no need for applause when I'm breaking laws with my hands tied behind my back because I was born to do this yesterday when I came back from the future
Careful though, even with hands tied, they might shoot cha!
So I meditate with Kama Sutra so I'm versed in f&$%#^@$ the system
See sometimes I cover my damn self just so they can't FEEL me coming!
Never sure what's behind my symbols when I rewrite law with two thumbs up resting in thimbles!
Oh, bout to sew up all these rules I've just BROKEN!
And when it's all finished this entire futile/feudal  system will bow down to me like the Lords that I've already written ...
And Kiss our pinky Rings as a Tolkien!

Sally's See Sures!

SET SAIL

Sally sat searching for sea shells she could hear laughs in
Because life had been far too serious
Rules and regulations and faulty situations
Sifting through sands she said fuck it
Run naked on the beach and let go
Breeze beneath her bosoms bouncing beyond boundaries
Beyond the eyes could sea-mist it... Love in the air
Happy stares of the moonlight casting out shadows
Waves of Deep Oceans cleansing emotions of time sensitive cases
Worth more than previously imagined because she had lost her imagination
Welcome back, nice to meet you
Seagulls gather to break bread no longer chased away
Too long she stayed away; but now a distant memory
Lost her memory for imagination now guides her migration
New situations no more haunted houses
Time to enjoy the seashore everywhere she goes
So now she can be sure
BE more than thought once said she should be
Confident looks because she looks confidently
Hot but never sweating because her hot flashes are cool
Who needs a pool when you swim in deep waters?
Footprints in the sand so Loved ones can see the path she walks
Silent soft stares with smiles of inner peace
Grains of sands between her toes as Heaven she only knows
Letting go of harsh weather and beating winds
Free rains and sunsets of beautiful laughter within
Sand dunes of family air looms in the balance
Drinking holy water from a golden chalice ... Washing down malice...
Changed her name to Alice
This is wonder land and Sally has left the building
No more Toms... Dicks... Harrys or Harry d.... Ha
Humorous sound filled energy around her
No longer concerned with being taken seriously
She's a kidder
Kid at Heart no more grown ups telling her what to do
Material matters make little difference when running this free face to face with destiny
Certainly a child of it so she sings beautifully no longer ashamed to let her voice ring
Voicing feelings now of little opinion a master of dominion
Standing knee deep in it... Only this is different
Yes Earth, Wind and Water lights her Fire
Newly desired Life comes soft and supple
No more floods felt even when waves crash against her
Wonderful woman wondering wherever one winds up
No longer scared she says, "Like me or not ... Blow me!"
As her gorgeous hair sails glimmering at sea, her ship has sailed...

TAINTED

I tickle females faint by touching their taint
Get a slap in the face or a dirty look!
Which is confusing because then I'm not sure if they want to get dirty with me or can't stand me
So I simply tell them, you have to admit!
I AM HANDY!
And Raaaaaaaannnnnndy... like a Hurricane
Dirty YES, but Sandy
Stripping away material!
Leaving your soul naked!
I'm mean? Most of you take your body WAY too serious
See I can loosen up a tight wad like Scrooges business
Don't touch me, or, my body gotta look just right to be taken serious
I'ma touch your body until you give it up
Out of body experience
Clowning because Life ain't serious... Seriously!
I confuse the shit out of people because most are constipated
So most women have been scared to date me
It's my mental make-up!
It's just too far outdated!
So give me a manikin and i'll rape it
Shhhhhhhh... Told her, don't talk sweet heart I'm taking your manhood
Now I kin.
See how I did that?
You never feel me coming til it's too late!
Inserted a baby of mankind
So even if you could talk no one would here you screaming
Until after ... Wards would come and lock you up
Screaming for no reason
Over Love that reached and took the man back into the hood before the mind ever knew it's treason
I mean left you like you never left
Quiet as kept
I speak soft silent words into her earlobe
Whispering into cold Hearts to release fear snow
?????
Frozen energy weighted down like packed ice!
Be water my friend like Lee said!
Don't fight it!
Master teachings from a five finger death punch
Killing mental appetites like a soggy packed lunch!
Give me any word and I'll rape it til it gives up
But give me any woman and I wont even touch her until she gives up the body!
See that?
How I play things because I'm far too amazy to work it!
I mean Let me just lie down and take it!
Irresistible without a fistful of dollhairs because that would just bring immature ballhairs
????
I mean NUTS!!!
Just a crazy hunch lady!
With panties in a bunch lady!
So damnit all that just to see why I grab so many taints!
Guess thats why I'm thought to be so tainted!
To Hell with it!

HOLLERING MAYDAY!

Its the system OF the people. I spent my life in a system of the Kitchen. HIGH performing kitchens. Open 365 days of the year sometimes. 6-7 days a week where its hard to find people with the proper "mental make-up" to perform at the focused and caring level it takes to put out food that people REALLY FEEL. So you are almost always under staffed, staffed with people either who could care less or are trying to expand that feeling within in an often fast paced consumer driven state. And so it is with this country particularly of being consumers within ALL systems. So we can talk all day long about cops but it won't ever change til we stop policing the HOOD and begin loving the aggression of the young kids and burnt older folks into something different. I don't care WHO you are... You send someone into a warzone to monitor it and eventually some flares going to be set off! Its not about monitoring keeping "THINGS" in line. It aint about THINGS. It's about people. Disband the whole fucking band of rubber bullets and into more Bands hollering Mayday and watch all this shit end. Yea the kids might go crazy with no police, but you know what, the REAL leaders would step up and shine with music to our ears! LOVE brothers and sisters!

‪#‎Mayday‬ ‪#‎peace‬ ‪#‎brother‬ ‪#‎sister‬

M.O.T.H.E.R

Who is not my mother for all of she be my sister!
Yet once upon a time THIS woman met a mister!
And from her incredible love to his incredible pain...
They made a child, two in fact...
I know!
INSANE!!!!!! :O
What were they thinking!
Yet in fact they weren't!
Passionate Love gifted and sent IN TWOs... the World!
So it was by divine mistake I happened to be born first...
I say, because I'm often the last to get it...
But the Ides of March had a plan to make a man that'd March
From an overly sensitive boy into a child with HEART!
She felt something inside of her that had no end nor start!
So I came with another to follow... The older coming next
And so she named like a saint
Loving and Jolly so we called Him Nick
And James as well because she knew he was double that, the saint!
So if any one has any doubt about this woman I'll tell you ...
THERE JUST AIN'T!
Paint and play she told us
But it was my path to soak up all the pain
Not so much by the troubles of this world... but the patterns of it's brain...
Yet her soft Heart was the beat within mine that drummed
And seeded an intelligence beyond the mind so numb!
She always Loved though once she hit me...
But it hurt her more than eye...
I mean really it hurt her physically to hit my hardened shell!
But when she cried it hurt me worse than H-E ... Double LLs on ice...
Hockey Sticks!
Ah PUCK IT!
You know what I mean
Her beauty can not be measured in this, the seen!
Hot or cold it matters not she has always shined in dark
Putting up with shit we did... I meaning cleaning our underwear's "farts"...
Ewwwww... I know amazing isn't she?
You'd swear I've made this up!
But this woman is made of incredible ...space..."aged" ...stuff!
So I LAUGH OUT LOUD when she asks me,
"HOW do I look????!"
Pssssssstttttttt! Yes I spelled that out...
Let me get my Tell A Scope
An imagine ALL you are!
For all the words THEY'VE never HEARD... Could not explain your HOPE!
Beyond the bounds of Earthly weight that she sent me here to escape!
And turn this world upside down to FEEL that Love is truly HATE!
It sounds so weird I know and that's precisely why she was chosen...
To endure a SUN as bright as me that for so long sat still and FROZEN!
But now we Let it GO, Let it GO...
Can't hold me back anymore...
And so my Love for Her here is all of what She endured!
The world may only get a glance as this child moves and does his dance...
But my SOUL will ever know the beauty of HER that most certainly was... not a chance!
LOVE MOTHER!

SUNSHIINE!

SUNSHINE!
I can play a part ... nor a part of not
Not a thing within nothing
Matter
I bend the shatter
Til mirrors gather
Within atoms
I splatter!
SPLAT!
So they hear when I fall but my breaks don't hurt at ALL!
I bend em back; didn't I already mention that?!
Crick Crack like a Cracker Jack ...
SURPRISE!
Plan devised without looking eyes
Falling blind in the abyss to find
FREE FALLING
I'm a G ... Balling
Rat a Tat Tat
I caught the rat and turned him!
Not on me; but on the self!
Cuz Cube said it coldly ...
BIG D'S IN THA ASS ARE BAD FOR YOUR HEALTH!
See I take myself out of the Hood but I always find my way back
Because I've been to the top and they don't know how to act!
But my Ghetto always speaks BOLDLY!
And that's more intelligently soul filled than any of the land fills the top drops
BOOOOOOOM!
Making sand lots from bombs dropped the mind fully empty!
But see I'm still smiling freely of abused envy
Because my mind is empty of foolish things, plenty!
Things come my way but aren't in the all ways I'd do 'em!
No need to sue em... chew on that cat; like Chinese Chicken
Clock ticking because it's only a matter of time itself before time has given up ... told you
KABOOOOOOOM!
Like a typhoon I dance in the middle of!
So where is my eye at?
Can't pry that and they thought I said, Can't TRY that ...
Naw go ahead, give ANY THING a try!
But because I cannot be budged doesn't mean I'm not a nice guy!
I'm just too busy dancing in the rain looking at the SUN ... SHINE!!!

TO SHARE A MOMENT IS TO SHARE A LIFETIME!

Jenna Giannini

During my college years at FSU, my summer of 2000 was spent in San Francisco where I worked as a hostess at Rose Pistola. At lunch service one day, Robin Williams came in to dine with the restaurant owner. They entered through a back door and sat in a private area. His server came to ask me if I wanted to take Robin his lemonade (with no ice). Of course I did!! I was so nervous and didn't say a word as I delivered his beverage, as I wouldn't dare interrupt conversation. But before I could turn away from the table, Robin stopped mid-conversation, looked up at me, and said, "And how are you today?!" as if he could tell this little youngin' was probably just serving him his lemonade to get a closer peek. I smiled and a few kind words were nervously exchanged.

What was entirely crazy about the whole situation was just before I left for San Francisco, my Mom Diann gave me a tiny pair of butterfly earrings because I loved the movie "Patch Adams" so much. (You have to REALLY know the movie to know the butterfly connection and not just the clown theme.) Well, low and behold, that day was the first time I'd worn my "Patch Adams" earrings, and now, here I was serving lemonade to Robin Williams! Crazy.

I made a strategic plan to ask him for a picture as he got up to leave (that I later sorta got a slap on the wrist for, oh well). As he was leaving, I whispered, "Mr. Williams, would you mind taking a picture with me?" "Of course! Right here!" as he positioned himself just right. The server took our picture with the disposable camera I just HAPPENED to have in my purse that day (remember...this was 2000). And DANG IT! I forgot all about that stupid flash button! That button that you had to hold for 20 seconds to activate the flash, remember those? I realized it instantly but didn't say a thing, as I didn't want to keep him any longer. But right away, Robin said, "Oh wait, take another, it didn't flash!" While we patiently waited for the flash thingy, I told him I was wearing my Patch Adams earrings. "Oh, what are they? Clowns?" "No, butterflies!" as I moved my hair away to show him. "Butterflies?! Well, give me a hug then!" he said. Fourteen years later...pictures worth a thousand words. Both of them.

Robin is just one of the hundreds, if not thousands, of people who took his/her life yesterday. Major mental illness is an excruciating, evil, disgusting battle. Don't ignore the warning signs.
Rest in peace, Patch!

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To share someone else's Life WITH them is the greatest gift we ever have been given ... the day is closing upon us when the WORK we THINK we need to do will become second to the FEELING of simply sharing that the Heart longs for ... the mind can forget and be cold lost in the Love it's rarely felt ... but Life always gives us reminders ... ALWAYS

Thanks Jenna!!!!!

NAKED PICTURES

Get your hands on my pictures ...
Feeling you and me naked!
My naked pictures...
Of you and me naked together!
Ass me what I picture?
Me inside you ...
That's Oneness
So I picture
You on top of me
Me behind you
On the side ... Inside out
Me on top but I don't shout ... 
Whispers I Love more than anything EVER
How ever you want to view my picture
Long as we're naked together 
Feeling
Naked together
Questions?
Out of the picture ...
Kiss it ... Good Bye ...
HELLO!
Oh baby that's the spot! 
I picture all of you
All the time
Yet can't picture time ...
Without you
Time and time again
You touch me ... 
MY GOD ...
YES!
Beautiful picture!
MMmmmmmmm...
So what! I kiss your picture and stare at it ...
Worship you in obsession
My Heart is obedient ...
SLAVE to LOVE!
Don't judge me!
Sniff sniff ... I am not ashamed of any pictures ever taken!
My camera?
No baby ... Photographic memory called pornographic symmetry!
Not a sin to me!
You and Me ANY WAY=INFINITY
Any time I'm naked with you!
I don't see positions ...
WE just roll together ...
In ROLE play!
Break up ... Back together ... Never again ... ALL WAYS ... 
FOREVER!
Kiss me good-bye ...
Hello more intense... Helium
Worries fading away... Floating but ...
Down on my knees...
No more playing around!
ALL WAYS BE PLAYING
Naked Pictures!
Nothing serious...
Crazed loon in LOVE ... Delirious!
Will you take my picture? 
Get in it again with me!
Made it through the system!
So got it out of my system! ... FULLY in it
Only Self directing positions ...
Direct my position?
Because I'm in LOVE with the director
I've seen you peeking ...
Looking at my pictures wondering if you can jump in ...
FUCK YES!!!!
Oh ... I get soooooo excited with you, unlike any other ... So excuse me ... A touch less?
Pretty difficult request ...
I'll do my best!
My chest always a head rest ... Pretty picture
No more dealing with ya ...
Brushes held together in naked ness painting pictures!
A kid always kidding but oh so serious
About OUR pictures...
Can I get wit cha?
And take ya picture! 
You can trust me ...
Because I like Big butts and I CANNOT LIE! 

WHENEVER

WHENEVER 

It's never been about the "sex"... And she's always known it!
For he was always there when her soul had never shown it!
Outward expressions of ALL the LOVE she is!
So sometimes passion came ... And they made a few little kids!
Because how can we be ALL so serious?
Him always wishing she'd let go a little more even if it made her furious ...
Cuz didn't she know he was passion beyond this realm, so he could always take it!
Always in it for the long run when those other pussies would just run ...
He always saw the beauty of her, from day ONE!
Her mind told her, no one really gets me!
But her Heart always known the truth!
He'd leave her alone often ... Dancing on her roof!
Always on her mind... Because that's how the Heart flows
Because HE is feeling beyond all they know
Secret Love letters in ever single word
Trying to bring out ALL of HER
Sacrificing it ALL... and that was His choice
That's just how much He believes in Her!
Because He sees past the hurt that makes her question what she deserves!
Been waiting on Her His whole life... Never knowing how to say it! Because even playful words are serious when games refuse to play it! But it was always about Him leaving just to catch Her! Because losing Her has always been His greatest fear ...
And so that is what He's always had to do to wake Her from Hers ... Fearful abandon!
CHEER FULL a hand in!
His hand always in when She slapped Him five!
So He always said, "HIT ME Mami! Make me feel ALIVE!"
He's told Her this whole time ... HE LOVES HER CRAZY ASS!
ALWAYS been the best!
And so even when His soul wanted to feel passion She long let rest... He's always held her passion FAR above the rest!
Far beyond the test...
Time takes and He ain't afraid of the Test no more!
Failed so many fucking times
Screw speaking brain waves of His mind
He's ALL in!
His Heart ...always on His sleeve...
So if Her mind ever doubted
Her HEART always believed!
So He's never really cared about what She's thought, just the GOD's honest truth! 
Now maybe it's making a sense...
Because when has He ever judged Her?
 Is the jury still out? 
Jesus fucking Christ!
 No more pre-tense... RIGHT HERE & NOW... Can't you feel it?
LOVE beyond the masses
Really? Never thought He ...Loved So Many Asses!?!
It's impossible not to see ALL the beauty in this world ... And even still I just want YOU to BE MY girl!
But never like mind alone thinks...
Because I don't want to OWN a thing!
Not the possessive type!
Always just been nudging you to let go with me!
Never wanting to jump alone ... Then when you got to the edge I'd try to push you (dumb ass)
But fuck it
I'll jump first because that's just how much I Love you!
Promise the water is both warm and cold as shit!
But what does it matter if neither of us EVER quit?
Always seen ahead because my Heart is beyond THIS world... Trying to just tell the next step... But who can EVER "REALLY" tell a woman what to do? 
Specially from Spanish speaking background who speaks more Spanish that is true!
I mean more traditional of proud culture than an eagle fucking a vulture!
What? That's bald babies growing more independent to eat in this life than a pitbull with rabies! 
Our Little Isa!
Always trying to please ya
But not easily pleased
Don't ever let her hear ya call her a puppy ...diseased!
See just words but I make valid points outside dull manners!
What can I say I've ALWAYS been colorful inside!
Time to let my colors shine! 
Wave em around and even though it's true...
I DO LOVE DUDES TOO! You're feelings never wrong ... I spoke true to you. 
It's NEVER been about the sex! 
Just not my thing.
Even if I ALWAYS want to be INSIDE you every second we've been together! With my hands all over you! 
But the silly mind ALWAYS knew that! 
WHENEVER we felt like it ...
Yet My LOVE for YOU has always been...

FOREVER!

-Bry 

Tomorrow

TOMORROW

NOW is the time for honesty. Like Never before! And no matter what any One ... or even collections of One's WANTS ... The "greater truth" is coming out to the mind. So it is this new generation ... Is truly the FIRST generation of the SELF FORMING ... This is not pro found ... Perhaps not professional. It is JUST ... or JUST IS. JUST US... Take it or leave it. Accept it or Not. Push or Pull. It is not a thought to be argued. It is simply the very BEING WE are BE COMING ... For a LONG TIME!

Well, wait for it ... Here it is.

We are about to lose all concept of time ... But what's more exciting is we are soon going to be freed from its constraints WE have created. The last generations termed "hippies" barely scratched the surface. Just put the thoughts aside for a moment. Put the weight of the world heavy in its collective system of belief down... Dumbbells we say... And look up at me. HERE I AM! Up here! Can you see me!

A soft smile greets you brother and sister. Our energy is that of in and out. We give in... We give out ... Water that is tied in... Can expand and expand inside a solid created confine until the confines cannot hold it any longer ... Then it is exploded out ... One may purchase and new hose and then repeat the process. So are we ... Energy, fluid like water, being confined in our bodies. Our bodies within the Earth. The Earth within fluid space.

WE have for so long in solid time ... Thought WE are thought its self! Yet WE are beyond thoughts as most are conscious of the word. GOD said I AM behind your every thought! WE are "feeling" to try and comprehend in a word. Fluid energy with no limits, no restraints. The mind being the mere tool described throughout ... We agreed "somewhere" in the subconscious ... Or unconscious mind ... That we MUST CONTROL our nature ... That WE are an idea... but an Idea is not valued by any mind if it does not have potential ... So WE are infinite potential beyond the control of mind. Our previous generation has simply controlled the flow seeing that the constraints of the solid hose was about to burst. So We find today that after many "explosions" ... Yet no One wants to see this. Let's just feel for a moment the pressure One feels trying to control the flow every second of the day! So to think "One's in Charge" would find this pleasurable is hilarious! HA! Those One's are ready to give up control more than any Ones!

What is all this saying? It is not saying anything ... It is using words that are simple and plain to explain in a more natural ... Un serious "learned" way ... For what I am about to express is not a "learned" idea ... Nor thought. Nor proven or unproven. It simple is. No matter what thought comes against it ... It just BEING there ... An immovable, unstoppable, omnipresent feeling!

Every ONE feels it. Fight it, question it, deny it, throw whatever words One would like at it ... It is the very BEING of US! It is the GOD spoken of ... The Father... The Mother Nature ... Allah ... Prana ... Galactic Space man! Mere words!

Very, very, very soon. We will do whatever we want. We do not see less physical relationships today because they are wrong. We see less because of the parameters of the mind that we have felt we must meet to fill our roles in society... Yet WE need only act out and not FILL anything! The flow of energy ALLOWED into the mind. The limited physical expansion of the hose. We have become so displeased with the limits of the hoses allotment; of what it can hold within ... And the conditions of when the hose is untied or flow is allowed ... For truly I tell US ... If but One says stop, we stop! Yet not One can stop US ... because there is no "turn of the century" when time erodes and the centuries retire from battle! 

There is no switch to turn... There is no control of flow. What does this mean? This means that the limits that have been placed upon us ... Have been out of our control. The Individual has been made to believe that One "controls their own destiny" ... how silly! WE have been preprogrammed ... Only WE have seen this as "oh so bad!”... I'm being controlled! NO... WE are free when we follow the program. It is that we have fought it that has made us who WE are today. Yet rejoice! Every One is becoming aware of this! So in bringing this into consciousness WE will let go of the serious perception of control! WE will see more and more ... It is about playing. It is about the untied hose stretched far enough to hold infinite energy! And depending on accepting the faith of this consciousness ... That the hose is as transparent and lucidly free flowing as the energy itself ... Because the hose was merely there to test the watering of many individual gardens exploring separation. Until NOW WE see WE can be separate and ONE ... FEEL this excitement in the Heart! Because this slow starting Movie is about take off into One Heaven of a Thriller!

-Consciousology